Waiting

For your young life we must withdraw a while
from all our usual gatherings; must smile
through windows, wave from porches, speak through screens;
and immured, remote, prepare as if for trial.

Trial not legal, nor of warfare feared;
trial not of love or loyalty volunteered;
trial not imposed by sin or shame; but trial 
for health, confidence of screenings cleared.

So fast from voices, fast from faces, fast from
new, and old, and known; so fast from humdrum
needful outings; friendly hands, familial hugs;
so fast before this newest life is come. 

Thus priests and kings, knights-errant, acolytes
have done for centuries. Christ, on the heights
of all the earth looked down and – fasting – cried  
“The Lord my God I worship! not these sights.”

Awake! Uncurl, my little one! Advent
to us when we have wrestled! when we assent
whole-hearted to this fast. Then unto us 
let new life come! Hushed – till then – we wait expectant.  

Decency

“How are you today?” you ask.

“Feeling” – I say – “the sadness of my flesh.
Heavy today as concrete blocks. 
It’s sand on my eyelids. It’s holes in my heart.
It’s bones weighed down
and muscles mashed. 
It’s an emptied throat and hollowed words.
It’s feet that never move.”

Not that I say this.
Not really.

“All right,” I say. 
“Okay,” I say.
“Keeping on,” I say.

As is necessary.

For pain, like beauty, wears a veil.
Clothes hide skin from all but one fit worshiper 

as words and songs our inmost hearts.   

Ruminate Happenings

A brief post to let you know that for the second year in a row, I’ll be joining Ruminate Magazine’s Happenings to create live, online, in front of an audience.

This is a multi-day event taking place May 19-23rd. I’ll be writing live on Ruminate’s Facebook page on Friday, May 22 at 11:00 am EDT. Visit the event page to see all of the brave creators and purchase a ticket. You can have something made just for you – poetry, music, art, flash-fiction, or lyric essays – based on prompts and inspiration you provide for the artist.

Hope to see you there!

P.S. You can find my flash fiction story “The Angel of Ashley Place” in Issue 42 of Ruminate Magazine, which happens to be the issue pictured below.

Spontaneous Prose! Writing with Ruminate Magazine

Today I’m interrupting my usual post schedule (though I’ll still keep it short!) to share that I will be joining Ruminate Magazine’s 50 Hours event, and creating live on Facebook!

During the week of February 25, visual artists, poets, and short prose writers will be creating spontaneous art in 10 minute segments. Sign up and pick a topic, an image, a feeling, a memory, and have an original art piece made just for you (to keep).

This is a wonderful and exciting way to share in the making, giving, and receiving of art!

I’ll be writing on February 27, 7 pm EST. Read more here and purchase a ticket!

Ruminate Happenings Photo

Truth

If you drew

TRUTH

today

how would she look?

Would she be beautiful and crowned? Red lips and rosy cheeks, white skin and jeweled hands? – a princess of the realm?

Would she be scowling, furious and militant, with swords upon her belt and knives inside her shoes?

Would she shake the earth
as awesome as an army with its banners?
Or does she lie jellied, purple-bloody underfoot?

Would she look gently?
Would she look sternly?

Would she look at You – squarely –

Or would she look at Them?

Does she wear your collar round her neck,
does she play fetch
and come to heel
for you?

Would you run
toward
her
in welcome?

Or would you throw
up your hands
against her blaze
of intolerable
unending
and
unraveling
light

and
fall
upon
your
face?

Blessing

Blessing
is a complicated word

a Christian favorite we don’t quite
understand.

For God says,
“Blessed are
the beggarly
the sad
the sober
unassuming
slandered and unlistened-to for Jesus’ sake.”

Hardly, I think,
the kind of blessing
we are asking for.

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